How do you feel??

"How do you feel???That is the question...But I forget..you don't expect an easy answer.When something like a soul becomes initialized and folded up like paper dolls and little notes.You can't expect a bit of hope..."

-Stone Sour "Through the glass"

I really love this song and especially this part so I thought about starting my today's post with it.How do you feel???Most of us don't actually know because it can never be only one feeling right??It's just that one is one top and covers everything else or there's a mixture of them.Anyway,no matter what you feel like,I decided to make this post a little different.In every feeling's image hides a song so you can click on it and get to the song that I've put behind it and (to me) fits with the way you feel....Anyway,try to enjoy it...:)

If you feel kind of hopeless....

If you feel like you're in love....

If you feel as if you're looking for happiness....

If you want to get over a break up....

If you feel like you're in kind of trouble....

If you have a crush on someone (though afraid to admit)....

If you're like depressed....

Soooo that's all that I could manage to write...Anyway I want to tell you guys something irrelevant.I've started writing a book of my own in a webpage where everyone can write..If you want go,check it out and tell me what you think...:) http://www.wattpad.com/story/1108830-saving-me

That's the living...

I've already tried to give the definition of life.But this time,I'll share something different...The weird things in life that make us feel confused,sad,happy,excited so,generally the things that happen when we don't expect them to.Like little surprises that we don't know whether they are good or bad...

I think all of us have lost hope sometimes...I know I have..It's like reaching a point where you think that nothing goes right and everything's completely fucked up and all you can think of is "Why me??"..Yeah,it's kind of depressing when you try to explain it...But even when you are in a situation like this one you feel kind of depressed.When I reach that level all I say is that I feel empty...And I recall Metallica's "Fade to Black" which says "Emptiness is killing me to the point of agony.."One of me favorite lyrics..

But,I'm not writing this to remind you the bad times of your life..No,I don't want that at all..My point is that we can (sometimes) make something good out of something that may seem bad..Yeah,it's hard...But we have to stay positive right??Let the negativity out of our lives...Well,anyway we shouldn't let ourselves getting melancholic because of something...It's hard but it's better when you smile...

Reaching the conclusion,life is messed up...We are all messed up.And we don't always have to deal with things...I mean sometimes when you put too much pressure on something just to try and make it work it turns out being completely different from what you wanted at first...So,why not leaving everything messed up??Messed up is fun!!And leave life lead us to the final point...As "James" say "Getting away with it all messed up,that's the living!!"

P.S.My life seems to be right on it's place the last few day,should I be worried??:P
P.S.2 Sorry I haven't written for like ages but the inspiration thing doesn't actually help me...

Kisses to your smiling faces!!

All yours....

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears...

Well,the title doesn't actually represent my mood because I'm very happy,for some unknown reason,I just got it from a song and because I liked it I used it.Anyway,so it's been a tough week but today and tommorow i won't have any private lessons(yeah!!!) so I've got plenty of free time that I'm not willing to spend on studying..

When I was a little girl(about 5-6 years old) I had this idea/theory about the rain.It was like the best way to hide when you were feeling unhappy and especially when you were crying.The rain drops would hide every little tear that could come out of your eyes.And it's normal because you get wet anyway.So,everytime I was sad and I wanted to cry and outside it was raining I was choosing the rain.It really worked.When you are outside no one asks you why were you crying so,no explanations needed.Of course they were wondering what were you doing outside when you could get wet in like 2 minutes.But it's easy to find an explanation about that.

I haven't done that for a lot of years now.But to tell you the truth everytime it rains I think about it and laugh to myself.How many silly things were we doing when we were little and back then we thought that it was so clever of us??I was also thinking about that today because here it's raining like crazy...Plus I had to go and give blood for a blood test and I came back soaking wet!Just keep your fingers cross that the results will be as I wish for them to be.

Hoping you little readers won't need the rain for covering your tears because I really wish for you not to change your smiling face because of your tears...^_^

All yours...

Don't ever change...For anybody

It's been a while since I've last written.It's not that I don't have the time but I feel like I've got nothing interesting to write...But not today..Well,I think I've already written something about changing in my first posts but whatever...This post is about relationships(mostly) in which you sometimes have to change..

I really don't know why this is happening.I mean,you are your own person right??and when you are in a relationship the other one is with you because you are yourself...But if that's true then how come he/she asks you to change in order to fit his/her taste??You were his/her taste so what's the difference now??I hate this thing..I really do...If you have to be in a relationship and lose yourself then it's better to remain single.

Plus,you don't belong to him/her...So,no one gave them the right to judge you and finally to find that you are not good enough for them...It's like you once were the ideal match and all of a sudden the whole word came upside down and everything's wrong?Come on let's be reasonable...it's better to say that I'm breaking up with you cause I'm bored than use this stupid excuse...

And now about those boys?girls who say "I miss the old you" or "I can't recognise you anymore"...Guess what...You can!!!It's the same person!!It's just that you pretended being blind and that's why you "weren't able" to see some things.Well,sometimes people do change but it's not forever..It's just that something happened to them and they forced themselves to change but deep inside they are the same...

And now let's talk about you...The amazing you...How many times have you found yourself crying at nights just because someone told you that you're not good enough??How many times have you thought that you are not skinny/tall or beautiful enough??How many times have you promised to yourself that you'll change,not because you actually want to but because someone else told you should??I know the answer...I've been in the same place...But in these 17 years I've taken some decisions...And one of them is that I'm my own person and that I don't belong to anyone,so no one can tell me I'm not good enough!!!

You smiling people...Please don't change...I know it seems impossible sometimes but what do you need??Faith in yourself...and if you don't believe in it then who is going to???And people gonna hurt you,so at least choose the ones worth suffering for...

*And now something to cheer you up..:)

'Cause faith is so hard to find...

"Believe it or not everyone have things that they hide" 
How true...As I've already told in another post we all have secrets...And sometimes even though it seems weird we have secrets even from ourself sometimes...It's called guilt I think...So,don't forget that no matter how close you can be to someone there will always be things untold...Because even if you trust the other more than anyone else,there will always be this secret side of yourself,so take good care of it...

"Believe it or not everyone keeps most things inside"
Kind of fits the one above...There are times when you want to say something or better to SCREAM it out loud..But you don't..ever wondered why??it's like you've got something inside you that prevents some things from happening...Or you stop yourself because you don't want to hurt someone with what you want to say...And of course there are the feelings that some people want to have them hidden for some way...I think it's about time to let ourselves free...without doubt,just scream out loud whatever comes to your mind!Life looks so much better then!!

"Believe it or not everyone believes in something above"
Even people who say that there's nothing to believe in they're wrong...I don't know if the thing above us is called God,Jesus,Buddha,Zeus or whatever...Maybe it's the need we feel to believe that there is someone up there watching us,taking care of us,making us pay for our mistakes...I can't describe myself as someone religious but there are times when I think about it...I used to believe in destiny once...I still do,but I don't think it counts as a religion..

"Believe it or not everyone needs to feel loved"
I think that I don't need to explain that...who doesn't want to be "surrounded" by love..By people he/she loves and love him/her back...Sometimes love doesn't even need to be expressed with words...It's not what you say,it's what you feel and if that's love then don't worry,it will find the way to be seen..

*So,both the headline and the first lines are taken by Nickelback's song "Believe it or not"..One of my favorite songs recently...And all I can say is thanks for the inspirstion that it seemed like I'd lost it..:)

All yours...

Undergraduating expectations..*.*

It's alittle bit too early to write something about that but I've been thinking about it a lot recently...In almost one and a half year I'm going to graduate from high-school and until then one thing will be written everywhere and that's STUDYING!!I really don't know how an I going to get through with it..It's not that I'm on a big pressure right now but I see friends and realtives who are one year older than me and I get a bit nervous about how it's gonna be like...So,the only thing that makes me happy when I think about all these is dreaming about my new life when I'll graduate from school and start my college life...

First of all,I'm gonna dye my hair red...Dark red because all the others won't look good on me(yeah,I do have dark hair colour even though my skin is white)..Either that or I'll have red highlights..I haven't desided yet.The sure thing is that I'm going to be a redhead..and I'm planing to do that next summer while I'll be on vacation at Corfu(it's not for sure but I really hope it will happen)

Another thing is having one more piercing..I already have my nose pierced  and it's not that I don't like it but I think that it's too ordinary after all...So,next stop is lips..I really want to pierce the right down side of my lips and I think that it would be great!And if it's not then...-.-

It's also known that while you're at the university you can go travelling with a program for free for one year...I've already made my decision!!London here I come(for one more time <3)!!I can't wait to go there again!!Magda I'll take you with me too!!

As for my house,I want to decorate it in order to remind England..I know,it's like I'm addicted to this country bu it's a fact that it's amazing...The flag,the colours,the people,the clothes..I find almost everything wonderfull and I've been dreaming of having a London-styled appartment which will of course have cupcakes and tea...

And last but not least,I want to make a collage with photos from my whole life..Photos of poeple who mean the world to me,photos of the ones which have been by my side,photos that state the wonderfull time I've been having and ones that will always make me cry...I want to create a wall full of photos and I'm pretty sure that in the end it will be worth it...

*And of course being at the unniversity means having fun,meeting people,partying,studying a little bit,leaving on your own and being yourself!!!And even though I'm not sure if all my expectations will come true,the last ones certainly will...

Have fun you happy people!! :)

And to those who deal with difficult situations because they have to study hard this year in order to pass in a university I'm wishing you luck,courage and hope you always have time for smiles...:)

The Dark Blue fairytale...

It was a cold rainy night..The weather was like that recently...She was in vacation with her family...Her name was Lora,she was a 17 years old red-haired girl...She met someone over there,a local boy called Max...She wasn't very happy though because she didn't believe in relationships,so that was her secret...One night she decided to take a walk at the port that was near the hotel they were staying..It was also a chance to meet Max for the last time...The port was made of wood and there weren't a lot of ships around,as for people,there wasn't a soul...She started walking up and down in order to feel better...But something did scare her...At some point she heard someone walking behind her...She thought it was him,so she turned around to greet him...

And she saw a man..she couldn't see his face because of the dark but he was holding something in his hand...Something sharp and shiny..So when the moonlight hit it she finally show that the mysterious man was holding a knife...She started running to get away from him in panic even though she knew that at some point the port would end and the only thing that was beyond was the sea..It started raining and she could still hear his steps behind her...He wasn't running but he was definitely following...At some point she reached the end of the port,she stopped but she didn't have time to think so she jumped into the water...At first she thought about staying in the sea until dawn hoping that the waves would get her to the shore but then she realized that it was a stupid plan...She found something from which she could hold on and she climbed towards the port...She made it...She started walking furiously when she heard someone talking..She was afraid it could be him again but he wasn't..It was a girl's voice..She reached over there and she saw a woman dressed in red.."are you alright??"asked the woman,"you look terrified"..."Yes,I'm ok..it's just that I saw something and I was paniked"..."You saw him right??Don't worry,you are not the only one..he has been here for quite a long time but he hasn't actually killed anyone...but if you saw him then it means something..".."No it means nothing...look I have to go.."said Lora and left...She got at her hotel room and she couldn't stop thinking if the man she saw was real and if he had been after her for some reason....

How can our life be ours if it is controlled by fear??